Friday, January 15, 2010
Meaning of the kerchief
Many women who knit start a project to help them get through something that they are experiencing. I knew that my recent pregnancy was not going to end happily. I went to the emergency room expecting to get answers to why my pregnancy hormones were not rising properly. I took with me my needles and some yarn and decided to start a kerchief. A quick enough project to keep my mind off waiting for answers. I started the kerchief in the ER. I was half done by the time we got any answers. The results were possibly an eptopic pregnancy, or a standard miscarriage. Reguardless there was no way that this would develope to a full term pregnancy. We decided to treat it as an ectopic and seek treatment for it. I worked on the kerchief whenever i started to feel sad about my pregnancy. I had my appointment today to see if the treatment was a success. I have started to miscarry today and i finished up my kerchief except for weaving in the loose ends. I feel that finishing the kercheif has helped in my ability to accept my loss. I was pregnant but there was never a formation of a baby. It has been hard on me but it has also made me appreciate my almost 3 year old even more. I had a miscarriage before him and am thankful that Joseph is a happy, healthy and lovable child. I feel someone has been watching over me even with the losses to make sure I have healthy children. We will try again and hope we will be blessed with another healthy child. But until we can try again I have my knitting to comfort the sad times and a crazy almost 3 year old to make me laugh when i cry.